Yesterday, while I was getting ready to Church, Sze Yi woke up. She sensed that I was going out without her, so she started to cling to me. In the end, I agreed to bring her along. I quickly changed her and prepared her things in less than 10 minutes and off we went. Hubby dropped us first, while he went to have his breakfast. You see, initially it was only me going to Church, and I’ve taken my breakfast. But because Sze Yi wanted to follow along, hubby decided to drive us there. He just woke up by the way ;P
In Church, I carried Sze Yi in. I thot everything was going to be fine, but the moment she entered the Church, she started to point at the direction where we came, and asked me to go back out instead. She kept saying “pooh”, because my car has lots of the Winnie the Pooh bears, signalling that she wanted to go back to the car. I was persistent, as we were already late for Mass, and walked straight in, ignoring her protests. I did the sign of cross (also helped her with it) and knelt down to pray, all the while carrying her because she wouldn’t want to be let down. After I was done with my prayers, we sang the entrance hymn, which helped to quieten her down a bit. However, when the reading started, she began to make noises and I was forced to make a move or else she would disturb the rest of the parishioners.
I carried her to the benches at the back and tried to find a place to fit in. However, she wouldn’t let me sit down and insisted to go out. So I took her out for awhile, calling Daddy for rescue. However, Daddy couldn’t be reached because he didn’t turn on his handphone! So I have no choice but to bring Sze Yi around. I tried to bring her to the Blessed Sacrament Chapel, but she’s making too much noise so I took her out again. I then took her to see the Mother Mary Statue, and make a little prayer there. I helped her do the sign of cross as well. We then walked along the garden and I put her down at the swing, which she enjoyed very much. All the time, I kept calling hubby to try my luck, but he still haven’t turn on his handphone . Finally I left him an sms and decided to bring Sze Yi back into the Church.
This time, I tried to find a place at the back rows with a child about her age so that she would be interested. Finally I found a cute little girl, slightly older than her, but still a toddler and there’s a place for me to sit as well. I kept telling Sze Yi how good that girl was. Not too long later, Sze Yi was focussing on her childish antics, and I quickly use that precious time to catch up with the readings. By the way, I’ve missed all the readings and it was homily then.
After awhile, hubby came. He carried Sze Yi out so that I could concentrate. They never came back in. After Mass ended, I went out but they were nowhere in sight. So I called hubby, and was told that he brought Sze Yi to see 2nd Chik Chik since Sze Yi wanted to so much (he’s just staying nearby, very close to our church). No doubt Sze Yi was very attached to him, because he really doted on her. In fact, while we were staying with them last time, this 2nd Chik Chik of hers has been a great help – he always relieved me by playing with Sze Yi so that I could do my things, like bathe, eat, etc.
All in all, I was very disappointed and angry with Sze Yi because I’ve missed more than half of the Mass, and in the end, she didn’t participate as well. If this happened a few years back, I would attend a 2nd Mass again if I even missed the first reading (hubby would be very worried too because he’d need to take me to another Church and check when is the next available Mass). However, now I can’t afford to do this after Sze Yi came along. I’ve always dreamt of having her with me during Mass, but I guess it’s not easy. She’s still small and could not understand, considering the fact that I only took her to Church once in a while, that is whenever hubby could accompany us.
That evening, I took MIL and Sze Yi to Queensbay Mall while hubby went for his badminton games. We felt hungry so we decided to have dinner in Kenny Rogers and tapau something back for hubby, instead of coming out for dinner again later. While we were waiting for our orders, Sze Yi started to do the sign of cross! MIL initially thought she was doing the “head and shoulder, knees and toes” dance, because she touched her forehead, skipped the sternum and straightaway touched her two shoulders. But I could tell it’s the sign of cross very well since she did the Amen sign as well. I told MIL, and she was very surprised because only this morning I took her to church, and she could learn that so fast! I was amazed too, and felt really happy about this.
Back home, Sze Yi demonstrated the sign of cross to Daddy. She started by signing on her forehead, skipped the middle part (….and of the Son…), and straight away did the ”and the Holy Spirit” sign, in the right sequence – left shoulder, followed by the right shoulder. And the highlight of the whole act is that she actually bent both her knees a little when putting her hands together for the Amen sign. I have no idea where she learnt that. It was so cute, even hubby was amazed and can’t help laughing when she did the little bent. I wish I could have that recorded and shared here, but it’s not easy.
Guess the whole morning incident was actually a blessing in disguise after all, and I felt really proud of my girl
Praise the Lord!